tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61234256911682533382024-02-20T01:12:53.863-08:00Gin & RazorbladesAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06968869312859523609noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6123425691168253338.post-82162197513303349782012-08-14T22:29:00.001-07:002012-08-14T22:53:40.202-07:00Worry. Like a barbecue.<b id="internal-source-marker_0.6824384781066328" style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I worry quite a lot of late.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mostly that I no longer have the time to be what I should be.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">My talent's too dim to be the next bright thing.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I'm much too old to die too young.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But, but, but...</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If I don't fan the embers to a blaze, I'm guaranteed descent to ash grey grave.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If I don't try.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline;">I risk a spark short burn that no-one sees but me, but surely that blaze has to be.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline;">Surely.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Surely it does.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And I might as well burn as bright as I can; I'll be going out in the end anyway.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And if no-one sees, so what?</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">What will be lost?</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And who notices ash anyway?</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I</span></b><b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">'ll have been true to my source; I'll have reached my pinnacle.</span></b><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">Others will burn brighter. Others will be hotter.</span><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">But they're not me.</span><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">And they </span><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">may</span><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"> have been brighter yet; their true potential may have been denied.</span><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">Mine will not have been. I will have been the best I can.</span><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">So I'll have won. I think.</span><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">Time to fetch that fan.</span><br />
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span>
<span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">(And who knew I could still write like a 14 year old?)</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06968869312859523609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6123425691168253338.post-47842579671030879162012-08-14T22:10:00.000-07:002012-08-14T22:54:25.224-07:00All Aboard The Skylark<b id="internal-source-marker_0.6824384781066328" style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Life, eh?</span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Just when you think there's a chink in the clouds, it turns out to be a tornado. </span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Nothing to be done except go with it. </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Resistance isn't only futile, it's fatal.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Better blown off course than blown to bits.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Or so it's been said. Mostly by me, so not sure that it counts, but there you go.</span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I used to write 20 plus press releases, various reports and maybe 5 reviews a day. </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Every day.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">For 20 years. </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">One thing I learned doing it is that - for me - writing has become like breathing. </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Not that it's essential for life (though it might be) more that once I start to think about it, it gets stupid hard. </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Try it. Think about every breath you take. Really think. Control each inhaled breath. Hold and contemplate each exhalation. Gets a bit bloody weird, doesn't it?</span></b><br />
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<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But, once you take away the thinking, it works just fine. All by itself. Even when you dream.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">That's how I am with writing - leave it to itself and it just works. And I think it's the way I find out who I am and where I'm going.</span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But I've been gradually and progressively suffocating words with thought.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Which key to hit first? </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Where to go? </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">How to finish? </span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">What if it's nonsense?</span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Enough.</span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Time to give up the tyranny of control and let the words go where they will; they know the way.</span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So here we go folks. All aboard the Skylark. I have no idea where we're going. Could be a bumpy ride and we might well end up in a ditch. </span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">But fuck it, at least it'll be a different ditch.</span></b><br />
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>
<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And it might be nicer. </span></b>
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<b style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></b>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06968869312859523609noreply@blogger.com0